>>334530text is sometimes a shitty medium for friendships because you can't tell what kind of emotions are behind writing most of the time
there's so much joke depression that it's sometime hard to tell about when the real stuff is going on, and that doesn't make joke depression bad because there's usually something still to it and that's just a way of coping a little bit, but the serious stuff is significantly harder to spot
it didn't take long to notice you were missing, but without knowing the why of missing it's easy to silently have our thoughts and guesses about what might be going on, and just hope for the best
since it's holidays, it's easy to assume you could have been busy with those kinds of things, so there wasn't too much feeling of urgency about saying "oh someone's missing"
people go missing a lot, sometimes talking to computer people just feels like a pain and it's easy to slow down about it or stop entirely for a couple days, and while sometimes you might have your eyes glued to the screen and hoping to see a message regarding you so that you can then ignore it when it comes but still feel good that someone noticed, other times you can read a message and it's just fucking annoying because now you feel obligated to reply when you actually just wanted to be quiet for a while
i don't know how many of us have gone through this kind of thing, but internet friend stuff and text based communication just has this happen, a lot, and it's really tough for the person that is feeling down, but it's tough for the other people too, due to them feeling like you weren't wanting to talk to them anymore either, it's hard to pry into things when someone is in a foul mood, because you don't know if they're mad at you and if trying is going to make them even further annoyed
basically sorry if you're not getting what you need from us, but we don't
know what you need, there's not a lot we can do if offering an ear for any troubles you want to talk about and then that being rejected
none of us wish ill of you, we appreciate you and like having you around, but if you don't want to be around then we also want you to be happy and not feel obligated to be around people you're not interested in talking to
don't force yourself, but just try to believe that we do care, because that's genuine
